Tuesday, February 16, 2010

I'll Take My Great Expectations With A Side of B12...

I am so incredibly proud of myself. We are halfway through February and so far I have kept the annual breakdown, and ensuing rant about said breakdown, forcibly in check. Admittedly this is due in large part to the pills. Don't worry...only vitamins. That combined with a steel will and relentless determination to stay positive for the next few weeks is so far seeing me through. Ok, it's the pills...ok, ok and the chocolate but still, it is working...kind of.
I must reluctantly confess that I am longing for some warm weather and sunshine. The very few days when the sun has shone this last month has found me perched in the big south facing front room window soaking up the rays and replenishing my scant supply of vitamin D. I have resorted yet again to wearing crazy outfits just to get some relief from the winter wardrobe woes that have befallen me the last few weeks (crazy socks a must here). And I have found myself at this here computer more often than I would like to admit...
Last year I succumbed to the doldrums and had my temper tantrum...right here in public. I am not making any guarantees that it won't happen again, but this year I really am trying. Trying to live in the moment. Trying to find the lesson in the measured melt of winter and the gradual approach into a new season. Trying to remember that beneath the feet of snow lies dormant all the makings of spring. Trying to keep in mind that as soon as I have almost given up hope and resigned myself to the long wait, it happens. As if from nowhere...life. Wow. If there is not a lesson in there somewhere I will be surprised. So until the magic happens, here I am still enjoying a cozy fire and the feel of a warm mug of cocoa in my hands. I am loving woolen socks and heavy blankets. I am listening to the steady drip of the snow melting off the roof and marveling at the beauty that is winter in the north...And still basking in the sun with wild, ferocious and reckless abandon whenever I am lucky enough to find it!
Quote of the day: "It was one of those March days when the sun shines hot and the wind blows cold: when it is summer in the light, and winter in the shade."
~Charles Dickens from Great Expectations


  1. These last couple of weeks have been so long! No car, no sun, no chocolate, and 4 kids stuck in the house all day. EEKK!!
    So I finally broke down and wrote this letter.

    Dearest Springtime,

    Where are you? Alayna has pink eye and a cold. I blame you. If you don't show up soon, our relationship may become permanently damaged and I know how much you would miss me if I left you for Summer. Oh, and don't forget to bring your friend Sunshine. He's hot!

    Love, Me

    I'm hoping it will magically work. =)

  2. You are adorable...I usually sing songs to try and make it happen...between the two of us...

  3. You just need to move to Arizona--or at least visit in the winter. It is in the high 70's there right now. Unfortunately I am not there to enjoy it, but I think a fire, warm cocoa and a big blanket are really nice things to have on occasion as well.

  4. I've said it once, and I'll say it again, you have an amazing talent. Love reading your writing, you just have a way of bringing me into your world. Love it!

  5. Hey this is Bon from Drab to Fab to answer your question Han lives in IF and Ali and I both live in different parts of Utah. And what is funny is Han said she saw those at your DI too and was going back for them! Funny! Thanks for your sweet comments on our blog and for being such a great follower. We love making new blogging friends!

    Bon @ Drab to Fab