I would like to discuss the theory of evolution today. No not that theory...if that theory were true mothers would have three hands by now and ACTUAL eyes in the backs of their noggins. No, this is the theory of the evolving...me. Little old me. I am Leslie. Wife. Daughter. Sister. Mother. Mormon. Recycler. Writer. Friend. Woman. Gardner. Lover. I am a loudmouthed, stubborn, opinionated know-it-all, but a passionate, empathetic, friendly naturegirl. I could go on, but for everyone's sake, I will not. I am above all, a work in progress. I am evolving. I have likewise evolved. I think most importantly I am becoming more ME. Everyday more comfortable with who I am. Letting go of pretenses; both externally and internally. Allowing myself to get to know the real me.
It takes time and effort to let emerge the person we are at birth before life and hurt and fear gradually sneak in and temporarily rob us of our true selves. Temporarily. We are divine. Yet mortality has a funny way of snatching that knowledge right out from under us...oh around, you know...jr high. Pick, pick, pick, little pieces of our divine nature are plucked off and we have to patch and mend and cover up our perceived inadequacies for years until we are once again able to see our real selves. Once again able to BE ourselves.
I am not perfect. There are things that I do not like about myself. But I do not feel as much need to cover them up anymore. Instead I try to work to change the things that I do not like. To soften my temper, to be more open to change, to be more forgiving and honest with myself and others. We often change and mold and bend ourselves to meet others' expectations or to conform to something or someone we think we ought to be. Mostly to someone we think others want us to be. But there comes a point in our lives, at least I feel it has come in my life, when we are ready. Ready to come back to the real us. Strip away the layers of cover up and be open and honest with the world. ever changing. Forming new relationships, evolving in our current relationships. Finding new passions, resurrecting old ones. Making ourselves over for the better. Putting our real face and our best foot forward. Moving into being who we were really meant to be. It is exciting. It is evolution!
Quote of the day: "Be yourself, everyone else is already taken."
--Oscar Wilde friggin' genius
Hey evolving nature girl! I like how you say it. In my late 50s (really, gosh when did that happen), I'm still at it, evolving.
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Su-sieee! Mac
This and That. Here and There. Now, Sometimes Then.
Your post reminds me of the quote I recently heard:
ReplyDeleteThere is vitality, a life force, energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action. And because there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique and if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and be lost. The world will not have it.
It is not your business to determine how good it is, nor how valuable, nor how it compares to other expressions. It is your business to keep the channel open. You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work. You have to keep open and aware directly to the urges that activate you.
Keep the channel open.
-Martha Graham
beautiful post! i love it! ya' know if you open a cocoon, you will not see anything that looks like a caterpillar or a butterfly, you will just find a mess... so if i look like i'm a mess... it's because i am evolving! .... blessings...s...
ReplyDeleteThis is a very entertaining post! I enjoyed reading your views here. Very interesting. COme see me soon. Anne
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing such a great 'e' post. I love the reminder that we are all still working and progressing and evolving. Thanks!
ReplyDeleteThis is a very thoughtful post-one worth remembering. Thanks!
ReplyDeleteWhat a great post!
ReplyDeleteThought provoking and so honest..
love it..
I loved this post! Lots to mull over and some really good insights. (Great quote, too!)
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Great E post, and I'm still pondering with the idea of evolving..I hope I'll continue to evolve..I enjoy your post very much!
ReplyDeleteI love this and it's very Exactly what I could be thinking about right now!
ReplyDeleteThis is so true. And I could really use that third hand! I don't think we ever truly finish "evolving" in life.
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ReplyDeleteLovely.
Philosophical.
Thought provoking.
An absolutely charming post on my little journey through Alphabe-Thursday.
You've given me a lot to think of.
I like the idea of us always evolving.
Thank you for linking.
A+
I laughed so hard about moms actually having three hands and eyes in the backs of their heads if evolution was really working *L*
ReplyDeleteI enjoyed this though because I never really thought of myself as "evolving." Now I see how well that term actually fits in terms of how I've changed as I grow up and how life experiences change me.
great Oscar Wilde quote!
ReplyDeleteI liked your comment about "little pieces of our divine nature are plucked off..." so true.
Here's to our evolving selves!